And your voice was all I heard...

As I don't feel like making a journal on DA...but...

omgomgomg!
Art splurge!
I bought 2 new Canson sketch books. One of them was in a package with some pencils, blending stubs, etc.
And...

A $200 set of Prismacolour Pencil crayons!!!!

132 pencil crayons. The premier set <3 omg it makes me so happy. I've been waiting sooooo long for them. <333333
*breathes* I'll do another journal later to tell everyone what's been up...but omg *squee*

I had to do it before I washed out the pan so mom can cook a turkey.

Mass post will be later, but I just wanted to let everyone know that I will start using this again. Where else will I be able to rant? Though, I don't know how many people will read this...

It will be friends only most of the time, so remember to be logged in if you want to read.

There's going to be like...5 people? now reading this.

3 of which are from y-gallery *waves*
1 being a IRL bff, the other a DA friend ^3^

...gah, hurts to use cheery emotes when you're not in that mood.

I'm going to be cleaning up, and tagging entries on this journal.

I know, some of the old ones are...'emo'. That was how my life was at the ages of 14-last year. I think that was when I got this journal...I'll need to check...

Realize, a lot of this is IRL drama I'll be posting about (which only Susanna will understand as my hometown BFFs don'tcare/don'thaveaLJ...*stab*).

Don't know how many of you will actually read this as you probably have better things to read then my shitty journal...but here I am. *sigh*

...For as long as my attention span runs on this thing. I don't know how many people read it though...I might link my DA to this, and see about maybe...I dunno...making it open for people to see...
Though rants may still be under friends only...like the one soon to come in the next few days. It'll be good for me as I am going to be getting counseling. And I need to go to my site, and add some links.
I joined y!gallery, but am suspended as I am under 18. Will be 18 on the 26th of this month though. No worries. 
All in all, it may be good to return...and maybe pretty my journal up a bit.
First, I need to know if anyone actually reads this thing...

Had a talk with my BFF's I've been fighting with last night. Everything went great! They stayed till 12 after, and played DDR with me. I'm getting my life back! There's one major pack of stress off my back. *dances* And my writing groove is coming back. Just need to work on my art one. But that'll need to wait.
In school, photoshopping is awesome, family studies is okay, I'm working on psych, just need to kill my english teacher. If I don't return, assume homicide. If I make a post by May, things are a-okay.
For prom, I still need to talk to my date. Argh, he was supposed to talk to me this weekend! I haven't heard from his mom. >_< Also I need to give him my cell number. Wish he'd move out here, but he seems happier in Van.

I guess you'll be seeing more happy journals from me. *thumbs up* 

Talked with the psych teacher. I'm allowed to catch up, hand in my psych paper late, etc. She's been giving me catch up work, bonus work, etc. It's just the english teacher I need to talk about things with. I have yet to see my mark for that though. I'm sure Family Studies is doing good, as usual. I have a few things in photoshopping (easy), psych, I'm failing currently, but she's going to help me (must get on it once done), and need to talk to the english teacher.
My arthritis has been acting up. After breaking my right arm in grade 2, thing's have been annoying. Especially in recent years. My wrist will start throbbing, and it's difficult to move. Luckily, I got a wrist guard...in the last year. I just constantly forget it. As demonstrated last night at a friends.
Prom is going to be fun. My date is above the appropriate age, and I need to get money together for my outfit. Luckily we found a good site. Good prices, good dresses, good sizes. Just need to make up my fucking mind on a dress.
Art wise, working on chapters for writing, and printing out tutorials for art. *thumbs up* Once I grad, I'll get my ass right into practicing.

In other news, my friends are hopefully coming over tomorrow to solve some issues. *crosses fingers* I hope things work out, I'm tired of being lonely...
Now excuse me as I go back to being emo over dead birds... 

PS: woot! Finally beat Final Fantasy XII at a friends last night!! *dances* Fucking cheating Vayne!

For once, I am happy! Dinner at mom's friend's house, photo shop teacher praising me, getting homework in, not much to worry about. Well, there's still plenty of classwork, and catch up to do, but I'm okay.
Not much emoing for me, which is good. Yesterday was fine, I would have updated, but I was with mom's friend for a good long while, and then doing homework at home. So, no chance for me to do so. And I don't know what else to say. Other then I need to contact my prom date, and see what's going on. April's coming up. >3<
What pisses me off this year, is that spring break is going to be during easter one. Meaning no actual easter break. But that's all I'm peeved about.

PS: Anyone who hasn't been able to read the past few entry's, they're friends only. If it's personal, I lock them.

Yes, tis moi. Posting here. Still think the layout stinks, but I'll run around looking for some good ones. I have a friend who knows a few good sites. Anyway heres my life in a nutshell:
-School sucks. I hate Psych, and I'm sure my teacher hates me. I hate english, and the bitch of a teacher. Also a good 3/4 of the class. Prom's coming up, and I am still a walking whale. And I need to go back to curves.
-I doubt there is any chance of me getting my cosplay for AE together in time.
-I'm sure some of my friends are either avoiding me, or hate me...
-I haven't seen my long time BFF in a long time. (Though she's got the sweetest boyfriend around! <3)
-My iPod crashed (but I have a new one! <3)
-My art sucks lately (but writings getting better...)

Aaaaaaaaaand, I don't know what else to say. For anyone who gives a shit. I think I might update this more. Just need to find out if anyone cares...aside from Suzie. But she loves me <3

I seriously need to come back to this thing. Especially with all the ranting I need to do. As well, I am considering making my own writing community. Maybe convince a friend from Deviantart to join me. It's sad with DA, how one of my friends left, but she has having troubles like many people do.
Just hopefully I never do...

In other news, I fail at life. And I have 8 action figures, got addicted to Final Fantasy XII, and...need to get a Tomaj costume together for AE 08.

I don't know what else to say, other them Psych 12 sucks... 

Hey! Look! Another update!

Well...here's the gist. My big brother was living with us. And yesterday evening he was kicked out. Well...he's back. Why was he kicked out? He broke the rules of living with us. That would be, no drugs, take your meds, pay your debts, cerfew is non-negotiable, etc. Well...he goes, gets his cell stolen, spends the money he was going to pay a friend back with on Ecstasy and Marijuana, as well...he came back high, and took some more money to pay off the friend...and now when he's supposed to be gone, he's back. I discovered this at about...3AM last night. I was up listening to my iPod. This fucking sucks...

All I can say is, at least I have my friends coming over. They might be able to help me design a new character for one of my stories...or rather a bunch of my stories. Since said character I am replacing gets around. *sigh* >_< I hate doing this. I already had to do it once! Well...a bunch of times. Damn me and my clinginess.

What's good is, I'm out of school, have Math 10 Principals to do over the summer, but the summer is for me, my art, writing, and math. Gee, gotta love it. I'm planning on getting a job, and loosing some weight. Going to get a summer pass for the local pool. And got some things to get sorted out for graduation next year. I hope to loose a tonne of weight by Prom. Don't want to be the ugly whale they expect me to be. But I can say this; Double prom! w00t! Why you ask? I'm going to my BFF's prom, as well as my own. And I'm bringing her to mine. We've been friends since grade nine, and went through some shit together, and stuck by each others side, so why not? I'd invite my other friend (the one that's already graduated) but I'll have to think on that. Not to be mean or anything...but I don't know how comfortable she'll be having to do the dress up thing again. Maybe she can go to the one at my old school again. ^^

Now that I am in a slightly better mood. I feel fine. Maybe I should do this more. Though, I might make it friends only. Not many people want to hear me whining ^^;

And I need to get rid of the crappy layout. >_<

I just want to say this...I can feel my army growing smaller. Nothing more, nothing less.

Sorry for only updating this thing when things are bad. It's just...there's not much else to talk about. I'm finishing grade 11 on the honour roll, my big brother moved in (train wreck!), friends ships are shakey. As well, I need to get a job, and have a convention this year to worry about. Still need my costume. Art hasn't inproved much, only the fact that I have photoshop.
Stories, one is now on hold back (ie; Alexander) due to some character reformatting that will ensue. Some will be removed, to be replaced with 'newer' versions. Shit in live is driving me to this. 
The only thing keeping me sane right now, are my friends, and video games. Art is sadly driving me up the wall, but I hope to get it in order over the sumer. 
As well as this fucking LJ layout >_< it's too boring damnit!
I might start updating more, but that will be if there's a popular demand for it. Maybe every wednesday, or thursday? Or Monday, Wednesday, Friday? Any help would be good.
And once more, sorry for my emoness.

It's official, one of my reasons for being emo is taking it's course. I can't go deep into it till it finishes it's course like last time. But I can say, I am emo for a big reason...people and I have no communication skills.

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people. Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others. You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others. You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

Big update later...possibly this week.

I don't really know if I'm ready to start blabbing on live journal. I've seen too many people get flamed for it, and I'm not prepared for it to happen to me. Especially considering people who I know may land up seeing this. Although right now I believe I only have to worry about two of my friends seeing these journals.

Luckily for me, I opened up to some friends recently about how I feel and some recent fears I have been having. They were cool about it, and it went smoother than I expected. One told me not to keep it all festered up, but the thing is, it's hard for someone like me. They'll probably be the only people I'll be opening up to like that, mainly because their around me soo much...and other things. Hopefully I'll be able to derail the emo tracks, or atleast slow the train down, before I crash. Well, enough with the angsting.

The good things are:
-I have photoshop
-I'm allowed to use my mothers tablet
-My room is getting cleaner (big thing)
-I may be getting a computer for christmas
-My dads going to buy me some how to draw anime books ^^
-we will soon be getting the manga studio program
-now that I am not talking to certain old friends, I am able to bring only characters out of hiding
etc

Balance the negative with the positive...I can't fucking wait till I turn eighteen.

Art wise, things are funky. School work is going good with my spare, although next semester I am fucked. I am also fucked with the fact that I need to catch up in math, because I am in the idiots class -_-; my mother still needs to sign me up for internet course. I also still need to get a jod. 

With art, I'm being held back. I have a trade with inuboi on DA I need to do, and plent of homework for my art class *le sigh*. Need to grab some water colours for that. I have four or five projects I need to do, and one for my art foundations class. There's also all the ideas I need to get out of my head, and some practice comics I should do, since I'm planning on doing a manga. Yeah, I'm probably going to fuck up on that.

Writing wise...I'm lagging behind. I'm going to try starting up on that again, although I can't post anything other than emo poetry due to the fact that I don't feel like taking up the computer to work on something that is likely to become NC-17 within a few pages/chapters. Which reminds me, when I get my new computer, I need to get my mass back and working on "The Untold Tale". As I said, old characters returning, which thus means old stories returning, and more characters to sit there and draw. Although my main focus is "Alexander" and it's side stories such as "The Untold Tale". When that happens, I will also be getting back to fanfiction, although I still suck at it, it is fun. Most of it is slightly Alternate Universe, but I love to write it. Although I am getting used to writing Reno (FFVII) continuously saying "yo like he does in the japanese version. God Reno your habits are irritating.

Well, looks like that's all for now. I will try to post once a day, or every second day, but I can't guarantee it.

~Emo Arty

Who's willing to help? It has to be Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children related. And hopefully Kadaj/Cloud related. ^^

I'm hoping to get Alison to help me when she can.

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Big update later

If anyone is wondering why they can't read some of my entries, it's mainly because this is a mostly friends only journal. Quizzies, and possibly my stories will be the only things that are not friends only. I tend to bitch a lot, and possibly be very cryptic in my friends only entries.

The friends only ones may only be a few because I told someone about my life and got the "well there's always someone with it ten times worse than you" shit. I don't care about your prolems, or someone elses problems. I have my own fucking shit going on, that is causing me to wanna slit my throat. I don't care if I'm pulling out some fucking emo shit, this is how I feel, deal with it.

That aside, anyone know how to host images on your own computer? Or know an image hosting site that is free and allows graphic images. Photobucket is being a bitch, and are fucking allowing hackers into accounts that are closed to the public. Like mine. Gah, I go in there and someone has apparently ratted out my yaoi images.

Wanna see more bitching? Beg me for it.

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You Are an Espresso

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Albino Sailor. Where You Lived: Japan. How You Died: Dysentery.

I know, I haven't put any posts up here anymore. Well it's not like anyone reads it...which...is probably good. Luckily no Christian's read this, or have friended me and I friended them back...so I can go into as many rants on the Christian religeon as I want...that are friends only.

Life is fine...as it can be. I'm still very stressed, depressed, and such. Atleast I now am posting up on deviantart, and finally updated fictionpress. So I'm quite good.

Art is great, some of my mojo is coming back so that is good. I just still need to work on anatomy. I might get into life drawing classes. And I'd use models, but the people I consider continuously move around.

Aside from mental break downs, headaches, depression, and utter joy...there's nothing much to say.

I know this sounds depressing, but I've just had a mixed day. Most of it was good, then things started screwing up, which I hate...

The good thing about today is that my friends got back from the Band/Choir trip that I couldn't afford, and I got to borrow my friends copy of Final Fantasy: Advent Children. So some of today was good.

hehhehe *smiles nervously* ...oh fucking hell...just say it already, I sound fucking EMO...or goth...all is good. I'm an outcast right? Right Suzie? C'mon, someone who is good with reassurance help me >.